Artist: Sugarcult
Vidder: RickiesGal (Joyce)
Fandom: Vampire Diaries
Characters/Pairing: Damon/Caroline
Program Used: Windows Movie Maker
Summary: Will Caroline survive her relationship with Damon?
Watch here: www.youtube.com/watch
My dad loves the little goat in the Telus commercial. Guaranteed to get a chuckle out of him. As such my mom and I constantly make fun of him. We joked that we were going to get him a goat for Christmas and keep it in the backyard.
Obviously not feasible... so I was kind of thinking of getting him a joke present of a big stuffed animal goat haha. Has anyone seen them?!
Anyhoo, continuing on now. It's been about 6 days since I've had a decent night's rest. Around Day 4, it was starting to really catch up with me. I was feeling tired, my eyes burned and felt like they were bugging out of their sockets, I had a massive headache from the time I got up until the time I went back to bed. Come to think of it, that really hasn't changed much, except for the fact that my headaches have graduated into migraines and my eyes have pretty much gotten used to feeling like they've dislodged themselves from my skull. Heh.
Uh, okay, moving on. Where was I going with this? I have no idea. Oh! I guess I can update on how I've been feeling otherwise. That helps. Umm... let's see: Tuesday was terrible. After having forced myself out of bed at around noon, pretty much all I did was mope around the house like a zombie and cry periodically throughout the day for no reasons apparent or discernible to me. Wednesday was exactly the opposite. I woke up super early, probably around 7:30, even after having only slept for barely 4 hours. I put on some music, cleaned the house, then went ride around town to look at Christmas lights & decorations with Jayla. All-in-all, Wednesday was an extreme-high day for me. Thursday wasn't so bad. I did a little more tidying up around the house, did laundry, then Jayla came over for a little bit and we had pizza. By the time she left, though, I had a massive headache AND a fever, so for the rest of the day, I just kind of took it easy.
Friday was an off day again. I woke up with a migraine that felt like a 2,000-lb. man was tap-dancing on my brain. No lie. It was bad. I took some meds for that and it lessened; that's to say, the man lost a little weight, maybe went down to 1,000 pounds instead. Heh. I was really trying not to be a stinker though because it was supposed to snow here Friday night and I was really looking forward to that. Well, it did snow and it was pretty great, but I ended up being dragged out of the house into the cold to go to a bonfire at my grandfather's house. I didn't have to go, but my parents were worried about the freezing temperatures and what would happen if the power went out with me home all by my itty-bitty, so... yeah, I was dragged out of my nice, warm, comfy house and subjected to the cold & wind and the screaming of two insubordinate children. The little crumb-snatchers, I swear, the more you ask them to be quiet, the louder they get. Ugh. Needless to say, by the time we made it home that night, my tap-dancing migraine man had gained another 1,500 pounds.
As for the rest of the weekend, it wasn't so bad. The early part of Saturday was spent riding around town with my parents after going for morning drinks (it's a weekend ritual for us to go and have coffee or some other early-morning beverage and then ride around for no reason other than to stave off boredom afterward), while the later part was spend inside watching old crappy movies and cooking. Sunday, however, got off to a rocky start when my dad decided he wanted to be an ass and basically accuse me of spending excessive amounts of money by "going out and partying it up." No kidding. Those were his words. Going out and partying. Like, seriously? Who the hell does he think he's speaking to? Certainly not I, who never goes anywhere or does anything. I most definitely do NOT party. I know what his problem is though. I spend about $100 to go to the Emilie Autumn concert a few weeks ago and it ticked him off because there was something he wanted to do that weekend and he couldn't afford to do it. I also ordered EA's "Asylum" book as a Christmas present to myself because I was told that I wasn't going to be getting anything from my parents for the holidays. That's enough for him to accuse me of "blowing money" and "going out and planning my next big party." So, yeah, that set me off and I had to fight off the urge to cry for a while after that because I was just like, "What have I done so wrong? The only concert I've ever gone to in my life, and now I get this bullshite thrown back in my face?" It kind of devastated me, but my mom came to my rescue by calmly explaining that the money I spent had been saved from college scholarship reimbursements, therefore it was my money, and he had no say in how I spent it. Of course, he had to have the last word: "Well, she needs to save that money to do other things, like get herself to a doctor and get some medicine for whatever the hell's going on with her lately, and then she needs to pay back that loan she let slide by dropping out of school because I can't afford that and it's not my fault either that she decided to let everything go." [sarcasm]Gee, thanks, Dad. Way to make me NOT feel like a failure.[sarcasm/]
It took a while for me to get over that, but I did eventually. It still pisses me off that that's what he thinks of me. I've never partied in my life, not ever. Not even once. I don't go out and go to bars or hang out in clubs and spend money on drinks and drugs or whatever. Every now and then, when I have money, yes, I'm guilty of impulse-buying a new movie or video game or book. For the first time in my life just a few weeks ago, yeah, I also splurged on EA concert tickets and went with a friend to New Orleans to see the show where I ended up having the best night I've had in a long time. And, sure, I ordered myself a Christmas gift because no one else is going to get me anything and I think that's pretty shitty, so why not treat myself? I think I more than deserve it for busting my ass for so many years, not only at school, but at home too. My dad just doesn't seem to know or understand me anymore, and that hurts me because right now, more than anything, I need him to understand me and be supportive instead of bitchy and bitter and cynical.
Speaking of cynical, he doesn't even believe that I'm fighting depression. My mom told him what I've been going through the other night and I overheard them talking about it afterward and all he kept saying was, "I think it's a stunt because she doesn't want to go back to school and she wants me off her case. She's always had these little bouts, just like everyone else who gets down in the dumps. She just doesn't want to come out of this one. It's probably not even real depression." Once again, thanks, Dad, for showing just how much of a pompous ass you can be. And once again, my mom stood up for me. She's been through the same thing, fighting her own mental illness (bi-polar disorder and manic depression), and he didn't believe her for the longest time either. Still doesn't, I think. He just thinks it's a stunt for attention, which is bullshite. So she understands where I'm coming from and she kept trying to tell him that this isn't just some little bout of sadness where I can just plaster on a fake smile and force myself to get over it and be happy again. I've been feeling like this for months now and I'm beginning to realize that there is no way for me to pull myself out of it anymore. I just can't do it. Every time I think I've accomplished going back to "normal", I just end up getting sucked right back down. I need actual help and support and understanding and he just thinks taking a stern tone with me and bullying me with questions on top of questions on top of questions is going to fix me. Well, newsflash! It's not helping, Dad! You're only making it worse!
I just don't think he sees how much his attitude toward me lately actually hurts me--physically, mentally, and emotionally. Either that, or he just doesn't care. His own 'fuck everything' attitude is just clouding his mind and his judgment. It makes me kind of glad I have a doctor's appointment today, that way I can say, "Look, Dad, this is what the doctor said. This is REAL. This is what I'm going through. Do you see now? I'm not faking it. I'm not lying. This isn't a cry for attention. This is for real and I need help." Whether or not he believes me after that, well, that's his decision and I will respect it, but I certainly don't have to put up with his shite.
And unholy god, LONG RANT IS LONG. Sorry, F-List. Didn't mean to get all rant-y on ya. And LJ cut still isn't working for me, so... my apologies again. I'll stop typing now. I have to go get ready for my appointment anyway...
- Location:The Asylum FWVG
- Mood:
blank
Author:
Fandom: Law and Order: SVU & Grey’s Anatomy - crossover
Pairing: Olivia/Alex & Izzie/Addison
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything.
Summary: Set in NY, two old friends, Alex and Addison, find it difficult to communicate their feelings to their respective crushes. Multi chapter fic.
Spoilers: Starts after season 3 in Grey’s Anatomy and after Alex’s return to SVU during season 10.
In case you missed them Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3/ Part 4 / Part 5
Part 6
Current top-ten (not really in any order):
1. 4 O'Clock (Emilie Autumn)
2. Astral Romance (Nightwish)
3. Again (Flyleaf)
4. Swallow (Emilie Autumn)
5. The Poet & the Pendulum (Nightwish)
6. Innocence (Halestorm)
7. Sancta Terra (Epica)
8. Face the Wall (Emilie Autumn)
9. The Art of Suicide (Emilie Autumn)
10. When You Hurt Me the Most (Stream of Passion)
And my top-ten when I was younger basically consisted of nothing but Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, N'Sync, and the Backstreet Boys, so... yeah... definitely no overlap there. lol! I've expanded my musical tastes significantly and for the better, if I must say so myself. I mean, going from nothing but pop & hip-hop to industrial, classical, jazz, rock, and symphonic metal? Yeah, that's an upgrade in my opinion. For serious. =)
- Location:The Asylum FWVG
- Mood:
okay - Music:The Art of Suicide - Acoustic (Emilie Autumn)
Title: Bleeding Love
Artist: Leona Lewis
Vidder: Nicole
Fandom: Resident Evil Video games
Pairing: Leon Kennedy/Claire Redfield
Genre: Romance with a dash of angst
Spoilers: Up to Darkside Chronicles
Summary: Something happened for the very first time with you.
Format WMV
and
Title: Battlefield
Artist: Jordan Sparks
Vidder: Nicole
Fandom: Resident Evil video games
Spoilers: up to RE5
Pairing: Chris Redfield/Jill Valentine
Genre: Angst/Romance
Summary: Why does love always seem like a battlefield.
Format: WMV
watch both of them here
I'd appreciate if you could leave any feedback on my LJ instead of all the comm's i've crossposted too thankies :)

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Size/Length/Format: 46 MB, 3:39, WMV
Warnings (including spoilers): Prophecy, Sacrifice, Broken, Touched
Summary: Kahlan is burdened with the responsibility of being the last Confessor. Is there hope for continuing her line?
Link:
http://jane-doh1.livejournal.com/7243.h
I've had many close friends over the years. I'd say both my sisters are really close to me or even my good friend from highschool, but they don't really know me. For me, I'd have to say my best friend is my partner of 15 years. She knows me inside and out, through good times and bad. She has seen me at my best, and at my worst, and still is standing at my side. She calls me on my shit and forces me think about things and can always make me laugh. And at the end of the day I can trust her to tell me the truth, whether I want to hear it or not. Isn't that what friendship is all about?
This one (as I'm sure any Sarah/Cameron fan knows) is from
I had a lot of scenes in mind for this fic even before it won the poll, but I couldn't resist Cameron's original introduction to sprinkles. I picked it both for the scene's inherent humor, and the way the fan's have really embraced this addition to Cameron's character. In John's words; "Cameron is a sprinkles kind of girl."
-Ani/Gina
-Spoiler-ish for the first episode. One-shot.
-'If it were anyone else, she'd be over them by now.'
-PG
-Oh, sucked right in by JL's supreme hotness.
( what you get and what you see, there really isn't any secret... )
- Music:dj corsair
Fandom: NCIS
Characters: Ziva David, Abby Sciuto, Tony DiNozzo
Category: Drabble
Genre: Slash
Prompt: #62 Spring
Word Count: 100
Spoilers: Set in the spring of the seventh season. No particular spoilers, although there are so general ones for the season as well as season four and five.
Summary: Love is in the air.
Rating: G
Disclaimer: These characters belong to DPB, CBS, Paramount, et al. No copyright infringement is intended.
Author's Note: Oh, you mean I haven't posted a fic for
Follow the fake cut to the drabble.
AUTHOR: Wonko
PAIRING: Gina/Ani
WORD COUNT: 100
SUMMARY: If you need a summary for a drabble - it's the night before.
( Read more... )
Sins of the Child
Fewthistle
Olivia/Natalia
Guiding Light
Multi-Chapter, On-Going Story
Rating: Eventually R at least
Chapters 8: 4,167 words
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Sins of the Child, Chapter Eight
Author: Bella Taggart
Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy
Summary: 3 Years have passed since the day Erica Hahn walked out of Callie Torres's life. When professional life brings them back together, they must figure out how and if they fit into each other’s lives, after all this time…
What to expect: Angst, passion and most of all, love.
Pairing: Callie/Erica eventually...
Rating: NC-17 just to be safe
Feedback: Please :) You can reach me at bellataggart@gmail.com
Disclaimer: All characters, events, settings and situations mentioned in this work are sole property of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for profit, in constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context and are not intended to be defamatory or factual in anyway.
17th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/665
16th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/618
15th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/542
14th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/530
13th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/497
12th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/476
11th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/447
10th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/429
9th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/407
8th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/374
7th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/347
6th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/317
5th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/282
4th part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/229
3rd part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/187
2nd part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/154
1st part http://bellataggart.livejournal.com/145
Here is the list:
Perfectly Flawed - The Final Five - Spoilers to Daybreak
http://www.filefront.com/15075009
Everything Burns: Boomer - Spoilers to Daybreak.
http://www.filefront.com/15074927/
Tied Together With A Smile: Dualla - Spoilers to Sometimes a Great Notion
http://www.filefront.com/15074969/
See Who I am - Tory Foster - Spoilers to Revelations
http://www.filefront.com/15075095/ToryS
Who We Are: Ensamble - Spoilers to Revelations
http://www.filefront.com/15074975/
Get Out Alive - Ensamble - Spoilers to Revelations
http://www.filefront.com/15075007/Get%2
Author: Janine
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Pairing: Cara/Salindra
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don’t own them.
Summary: Cara is a girl who knows how to make the best of a bad situation.
Note: References to episode 2x05 “Wizard”. No real spoilers.
( “Oh, I don’t know,” Salindra replied, dropping her gaze down to Cara’s waist. “I think I’d greatly enjoy … handling you.” )
