I've been thinking alot about what to do with myself and my life. In some ways I wish I could go back in time and take my dad up on the offer to create my own business instead of going to college. The problems with the little piddly jobs I've been doing is that they don't have any real significance. I want to do something that helps people, that serves a real need. I considered going back to school but how can I decide on a course if I don't know what I'll enjoy? Besides I'm already 27 and I don't want to waste time or money that I don't have on pursuing something unless I'm absolutely SURE I want to do it. I just want to do something that I feel good about.

Money is great and necessary but being excited to go to work every day is a higher priority for me than getting paid. I think part of the problem is that I've been trying to fit myself into the 'regular' jobs out there. I'm not regular, I'm different, so maybe the best thing I can do is create my own opportunities. I'm still trying to think of a valid idea that I can pursue and also make money with because I'm really sick of being poor all the time and not having the money to look after my dog and myself properly.

I also do not want to spend the rest of my life relying on the government for the scraps they give me. I need some help with ideas, ideas on what I could and would want to do. I want to do something that will incorporate the skills I already have. I'm creative, artistic, enjoy writing, reading, helping people, making others happy.. I'm sending an email like this to many people that know me best to get some of their ideas, brainstorm if you will. So if you can think of anything helpful let me know. If not, thanks anyway for taking the time to read my blog.